silent all these years

Pressing On

2007-12-28T18:43:00.000+08:00

MERRY XMAS TO EVERYONE! (:

This xmas wasn't exactly great. But what i love about this xmas was the blessings that i received from my dear friends, the company of them and the feeling of returning to church once again. Oh yes. Im FINALLY returning to church every sunday. Im currently attending the methodist church of incarnation, the one where i grew up in. Somehow, i still prefer this church compared to all the previous ones i attended with my friends. I felt at home during service. Its probably because i practically grew up in this church. I learnt everything about Him in this very church.

Oh. And i finally turned seventeen yesterday! It was really really nice having all my dear friends wishing me happy birthday as soon as the clock striked twelve. Even my long lost primary school friends sent me birthday messages. THANK YOU SO MUCH!! (: You guys really made my day with all the sweet messages! Steven Gerrard made it complete by scoring that last minute goal against Derby. It felt like a present from him! HEHE (: Yeah, it could have been a great day until we went for dinner at DOZO, this japanese restaurant which serves food with a fusion of the french and japanese cruisine. The starters were all excellent. Until i got into this huge argument with my brother. He was throwing tantrums and showed faces throughout dinner. Then all of a sudden, HE COLLAPSED ON THE FLOOR! I didn't know what happened. Apparently, he had some nervous breakdown or something. It was really scary. I felt really guilty for not being the sensible one to give in to him. But well, he's okay now. Oh and thanks nithya, for the support you've given me. I would probably have gone crazy if i didn't have a friend like you!

Wow. And New Year's coming soon. Damn ive gotta hit the book like REAL SOON! Hehe. But my aunt from NZ's coming home on the first! I CANT WAIT! I MISS MY AUNT SOOO MUCH!! Hopefully she brings home presents eh (: Hee, alrights TATA for now (:

Sing out loud!

2007-12-12T19:52:00.000+08:00

HA! Bet andrea's gona remind me that my last post was like way back in June13. Im a busy girl you know! HEE (: Oh well. Wasted half the day sleeping actually. So i decided to just stay home and rot for the rest of the day. Damn i have yet to catch up on my holiday homework. I always seem to have something on that hinders me from touching those notes that will probably be my best friend for the next year.

Wee. Went for the MCR concert last night with Edsmond, Sharon and Sharon's friend. It was pretty awesome, except for the fact that i got trampled several times. There was some serious moshing going on there man! They kicked off with the song "This is how i disappear". Hehe. And Frank splashed water on my face!! Haha i was so damn happy lah! HEE! (: Yeah then afterwards people got a little crazy, shoving their way to the front. Im telling you, i was surprised at how many ah bengs turned up for the event. There was this chinese guy comparing Gerard's singing to Jay Chou's! WIERD LAH!

Oh and yeah back to my trampling incident. I can't exactly remember how many times i fell to the floor with people jumping around. But i do remember that there were always nice people who will carry me back up. It was actually quite embarrassing to keep falling you know. One of this guy just decided to hold on to my waist since i kept falling. Thank God for strong guys eh. There was this time when this guy fell on me. Bloody hell! I couldn't budge and he was really heavy! There was also one point whereby this guy from the back rested his hand on my head to try and 'reach out' to Gerard. Idiot! Hands were also all over. My rubber band came off my hair somemore. It was really chaotic, but was pretty fun at times. And oh. Did i forget to mention that the security carried me to the medic? Yeah they gave me plenty of water to hydrate myself and even offered an oxygen tank! Pretty extreme right? Ha.

Overall, MCR CAN sing live. It was not bad except for the trampling and the being carried to the medic part. Hehe. Reached home at bout 11.30 or so. The four of us decided to just share money and cab home (: Yeah then cooked dinner for myself and my brother and was watching various shows to keep myself occupied before the liverpool match at 3.30am. And damn it lah. I think i fell asleep at bout 3am and missed the match! Gerrard baby scored the first goal somemore! ARGH. I never like watching repeats, but oh well. I watched it before checking the score online.

Oh man. I don know if i can go for the Games and mass dance trial tomorrow. Turns out i might have tuition tomorrow, and it cannot be changed to any other day. Oh just to update, im gona be an OGL for the Orientation Camp 1 next year. Hehe. You're looking at the Assistant Family Head here. Argh so how?! Mom's telling me that studies are more important and i should just go for tuition and just ask my friends what happened for the day. Yeah, i think i probably should. I haven touched maths in AGES! I don think i even remember how to tackle differentiation and integration! SHIT!

Oh to end off, i would like to tell you guys that today is ------- DANIEL AGGER'S BIRTHDAY! (: (: He's my second favourite liverpool player, next to gerrard of course! So yeah. HAPPY HAPPY BIRTHDAY!! (: (:

Soundtrack of my life

2007-06-13T18:46:00.000+08:00

Yeah i know. Pretty long since ive updated. Though it may be the holidays, i wasn't necessary very free either. LOADS of holiday assignments, and not to mention, i do have to catch up with my dear friends right? (:

I miss so many people that i can't even mention all of them. And well, you know how certain songs remind u of certain people? Its so darn freaky. You guys should totally try this. Just take a long walk back home instead of taking the bus with an ipod or mp3 loaded with songs u love. Keeping a blank state of mind, its freaking amazing how your thoughts can drift back to a certain time frame surrounded by certain people. Haha. Feels like a dream man, it totally blocks out reality and opens your mind.

Well, for me, my short thirty minutes plus walk consisted of this list of songs.

(1) Californication - Red Hot Chilli Peppers
(2) Memory - Sugarcult
(3) Best of You - Foo Fighters
(4) Note To Self - From First To Last
(5) Fade To Black - Metallica
(6)Used To - Daughtry
(7) Far Away - Nickelback
(8) Should I Stay - Dreams FM
(9) God Blessed The Broken Road - Rascal Flatts

Its so freaking scary how this list of shuffled songs all mean something to me. People who were dear to me and well, certain memorable events. Hehe. I think people who are close to me can roughly guess which songs remind me of who eh? (:

But well, the holidays have been great! Went shopping, movie marathons and loads of other stuff! (: Can't wait for the krabi trip next wednesday. Gona get a tan! AAHH! Cant wait! And oh. Im reconsidering going back to windsurfing. Haha. Alright. M brother rented a japanese movie nada sou sou or something. The plot seems nice. Plus, the guy's pretty cute! HEHE (: TATA!

HAPPY

2007-05-19T22:53:00.000+08:00

Yesterday was my school's sports day. It was super duper fun. We had fire drill at 11am, though i wont really call it a fire drill since they told us what time it'll happen and all. LOL! It was super dumb.

Oh yah, my class is from the bannister house (blue). It was pretty wierd seeing everyone wearing the same colour shirt for a change. Yeah, anyways, my friends and i are in the house committee, so we had to do the pom poms for our house. Hehe. I finished mine on thursday night with the help of my granny(:

Hehe. We're all helping to do the remaining pom poms (:

Random photo. We're all just sitting around waiting for sports day to start.

KARIN! This is supposed to be candid. I told you not to look right! LOL! (:

Hehe. Anyway, sports day started at two. We had the march past. It was pretty dumb. All the participants (including me) had to march with our house in front of the school and do some oath before the event officially started. I participated in 4x400m run and tug of war.

I was the third runner for 4x400. Ran with priscilla, ivy and hui zhen (if im not wrong). HEHE. And thank god my mind went blank while i was running. I was so afraid i would give up in the last 100m. But hehe, i was pretty happy that i ran past two girls at the last part.

Tug of war was a blast too! Though i was freaking tired, i decided to just give it my all. It was so freaking fun! Haha. But for the second round, we pulled until all of us at the end of the rope fell to the ground! Im so gona join this event next year!

After that, went to find vanessa, yu xiang and the rest. We had a blast cheering for the other events. Vanessa and i practically went crazy cheering for the fart-leg race. It was SOOOOOOO FUN! We just kept screaming until we were almost out of breath.

Hehe. And our house didn't turn out too bad. We won the girls overall champion house, the best cheering house and of course, other events. (:

And well, im happy with myself that today didn't affect me as much as it did last year. It would be really pathetic to still be brooding over it. No doubt i still feel something for this date. But it will go nothing further than just remembering the importance of this date. Hehe. Im a happy girl now. (: Alright. Im gona go back to watching the FAcup finals. TATA (:

Pictures!

2007-05-13T17:42:00.000+08:00

Busy busy busy. Hehe. Can't really remember what i did for those past two weeks whereby i didn't update. And well, picture speaks a thousand words right? HEHE, So ill just upload photos (:
One of the study sessions we had on one of the Saturday Nights. Watched Spiderman 3 after this though. AAHHH. James Franco's super hot in that show. Haha. In fact, i think he stole Tobey Mcguire's limelight. LOL!

Karmila and I were camwhoring while waiting for our interview. We had to be interviewed so that they can decide who to put on the committee. Took manyy other photos too. HEHE. We were so proud that we wore the same colour that day, along with someone else. HEE!

We had dinner on Friday Night. Everyone had been so busy with school and midyears, so we met up on friday night for dinner. It was nice, though i had to wear my uniform since school ended late. :(

Went for chalet yesterday after school. We celebrated jonathan's father's 50 birthday at downtown east. Haha. And of course, camwhored the whole night away. PICTURES! (:

blaake craze (:

2007-05-02T21:15:00.000+08:00

BLAKE LEWIS IS LOVE!!!!!! (: (:

Oh my god. you guys should totally watch American Idol. His performance for ' You give love a bad name' was breathtaking, not to mention he looked super duper hot.

AAAAHHHHHH!! I wana vote for him! Please send me to the US!!!!!

Keeping Faith

2007-04-15T14:57:00.000+08:00

AGES SINCE IVE UPDATED MAN! Haha. Anyways, school's pretty hectic, thus resulting in my lack of updates. Ive got no freaking time to even go online on weekdays. So yep. im gona try to update whenever im free eh? (:

Saturday, 24March, if im not wrong. Haha. Went out with my best best friends to dxo for this gig. I miss them so so much. Both of them are currently at Singapore Polytechnic, whereas im in JurongJC. School feels wierd without them man. So yeah. Met up after since don know when.

We were actually expecting a huge crowd at the gig. Haha. But turns out to be quite empty though. And oh yah. Did i mention i broke my toe nail before that? So i was practically forced to wear my shoe on that day. And i couldn't jump since it hurt pretty badly :(

But well, after that, went walking around and ate at tcc, whereby andrea's cousin works there. Hehe. So we got discount for our meals! (: After that, went to arab street, but only to find that most of the shops are closed. So we sat at starbucks and had this stupid drinking competition with edsmond that made me gag. And all andrea did was take pictures of my torture. LOL!

Hee, I can't really remember the subsequent events that happened after this outing. Hehe. Sorry.

And oh. I can't remember which weekend was it, but i went to tampines mall with Isabel for a movie. And on the way back, met jing long on the train. Haha. Then it suddenly dawned on me that i miss my M.I friends too. Everyone kinda drifted apart ever since school started.

And oh, let me introduce this retarded photo. Took this after math tutorial. My class chairman, Ken, the one on the left, took my liverpool jacket and tried to squeeze in it, plus wearing my red hair band. LOL! He looks freaking retarded lah. He's a total manu fan. Haha. But Shaun (wearing green) is a liverpool fan.

And oh. Did i mention that im the vice chairman in my class now? LOL! But oh well, beats being a subject rap. Thank god. Cos you have to like photocopy notes for the whole class and have to collect assignments. LOL! Plus my class is pretty small with only 20 peeps. So yeah, i don think the class will get the notes on time if i was the rap. Haha alright. Im off to pick Nicky from the groomers now. He's a freaking fat dog now. Hopefully he got a nice haircut. LOL! Ill update soon. Tata (:

Music of the night

2007-03-18T21:04:00.000+08:00

Went to ECP on Sat morning with my family and friends. Hehe. And Nicky tagged along with us on his very first beach outing! (: This picture's a little blur cos it was taken in the car. Hee.

Isabel and my god sister's family were all there. Spent the afternoon building sandcastles and swimming with the two young ones (:

Nicky's sitting with my mother since she was blocking the sun. LOL! Smart dog eh? And doesn't Nicky look sooo adorable with his tongue sticking out? Hehe. I know im a good photographer (:

Yep. And i took this photo of my brother too. Try reading the words of his shirt. Hehe (:

With my god sister here. Yeah. I have to carry her whenever she's tired.

This is Alyssia's sister, Adeli. Isn't she super cute. She's pretty daring for her age. Not many young girls dare to carry a puppy. And after this beach outing, i think she has gotten over her phobia of sand. LOL!

The whole day was really relaxing and fun. Got a nice tan or rather , a sunburnt on my back. LOL! But at least i got back some colour! Hehe (:

Went for tuition this afternoon with Alvin. Did partial fractions today. Hehe. Pretty fun to have maths tuition again. And so sorry for missing the OG lunch at Seoul Garden today. My tuition time isn't very flexible as my tutor has school. Oh man. Got school tomorrow, have to wear the JJ full uniform. Hopefully my classmates are nice! (:

grace kelly

2007-03-16T22:21:00.000+08:00

Went to Seoul Garden with Shaun, Beeping, YiHern and Karmila yesterday. And guess what? Its my very first time going to seoul garden you know? LOL! Yeah, sounds a little loser though. I didn't know what to do when i got there. LOL! Everyone was like teaching me how to place the meat properly and all. Hehe.

Watched stomp the yard later at night. Hehe. The leader from the python group's hot! (:

And yeah, went to innovajc today to study with karmila and azirah. Hehe. Wore the JurongJC uniform there so karmila and i wouldn't look that out of place. Was pretty fun. Then afterwards went to meet Isabel in town and watched Primeval. That show's like a different version of Anacondas. Its super predictable.

And woah. I realised that on this date, one year ago, was practically the worst day of my life. I got my heartbroken this very day. I was feeling pretty sucky at first. But thank god my friends are all here to keep me company. And I CANT BELIEVE I SENT IT! OMG! It was one of the bravest thing ive done! ( Only my besties know about this, sorry) So now, i really don know what to expect. I guess ill just take things easy, at least i got something off my chest right? And Im happy that i didn't cry or feel depressed today.

Wow. I can't still can't believe i did that. Im a brave girl (:

Tell him

2007-03-14T21:09:00.000+08:00

Went for timothy's chalet yesterday. Haha. It was practically the very first time i went for the OG outing. Jia Yu kept asking me to go for the previous ones, but without fail, i always seem to have other plans. Yeah, so i decided to just keep this day free to go and join them. It was quite alright i guess. I knew everybody except timothy actually. LOL! I didn't even notice him in our OG before. Haha. And yeah i found out that stupid Eugene ditched me for SA. LOL! We were supposed to be like classmates in JJ, but his appeal was successful. HURMPH! Hopefully my new classmates are nice people.

Yeah, then i left early and met up with Isabel for dinner in town. Then we decided to go check out the fred perry boutique in Chinatown. LOL! Thank God jonathan knew where it was, or else we could have spent hours searching for the shop. LOL! Camwhored while making our way to the shop. Hehe.

After finding the fred perry shop, went to Don for an avocado milkshake. It was so heavenly (: Hee, and doesn't this black and white photo look vintage?

Went for choir camp today along with Kexin, Xue Shan, Hazel, Beeping, YongHong and Dama. The choir practices were pretty dull so the rest of us seniors were busy entertaining ourselves. Kimbery and yingling came by an hour after us to visit the choir too. So yeah, there were like three generations of presidents all gathered there. LOL!

Ice breakers were alright. Had fun like within our group. Beeping and i left early after that to go visit the fredperry boutique. Hehe. Yeah, i wanted to buy this bag, so we went there to check it out. Ate at Maxwells Hawker Centre then headed to Vivo to do a little shopping. (: Bought two pretty necklaces and a river island wallet (: Haha. And Beeping and i practically took cabs from place to place, since we could just share the cab fare. Hehe. Was an expensive and super fun day. I miss hanging out with Beeping. It felt like lower secondary days when we were like super duper close and spent almost everyday with each other. Great day (:

Love

2007-03-12T23:23:00.000+08:00

Oh yes! Finally changed my blogskin. The previous one was a little depressing for me. LOL! And yeah, i better thank my best friend for changing it for me, or else she's gona complain that im not a good friend. HURMPH. So, THANK YOU ANDREA DARLING (:

And wow. It has been ages since ive last updated man. Hehe. Was supposed to go for my M.I class outing at east coast today. But i thought i had guitar tonight, but instead, went shopping with my mother. And boy was it worth it. Spent 93bucks at topshop on this cute jumper top, and bought two pretty dresses. LOL! It sure is my lucky day man. The dresses that i both liked were all on offer. One was actually 120bucks, but reduced to 50bucks and the other was initially 90 bucks but reduced to 40. Im a happy girl now! (:

Hmmm, i had jurongjc orientation camp from thursday to saturday. It was so freaking crazy having a three day-two night camp with people you barely know! But well, i gotta admit i had lots of fun at the camp with my newly found friends.

And well, the first day of camp was kinda dreadful. I can swear that the people there can cheer all day. Almost every five mintues later, they will start cheering again. My OG wasn't cooperative on the first day. All of us didn't bother to participate in the cheers and found the camp a huge bore.

But well, THANK GOD. Things took a better turn from the second day onwards. All of us started to bond and started to cheer and stuff. The Mass Dance was super duper fun. And everyone practically went wild on JJnight. Haha. The chicken dance and all the other mass dances were super duper fun. And well, during the JJnight, all of us began to realise how much effort our OGLs put in in planning the camp. My OGLs were really really sweet. They bought us a toy tortoise (it was a signature thing for our group) and a whole set of utensils with our respective names designed by them. Hehe. None of the groups had this, and all of them were green with envy. (:

Last day. we did some activity whereby we have to thank someone in our group for anything that has made each other's day. It was a really great activity. I thanked Jessica here, for being a great friend and being there for me when i wasn't feeling well. I was really touched by what they said. And it really feels good to have done something that has made someone else's day (: And wow. The debrief at the hall was super emotional too. Some of the guys even cried. It is rather sad that it was gona be the last day whereby we can all cheer and stay together as an OG, before we all get posted to our classes.

And oh boy did i miss you, Nicky. Hehe. Doesn't Nicky look adorable right here with his tongue sticking out?

Give me the sunshine

2007-03-02T15:53:00.000+08:00

This whole week has been super relaxing for me (: Well, skipped school for the whole week, and rented a few dvds to watch at night. And i love this actress, Hayden Panettiere! She acted in Heroes as the cheerleader who's indestructible. I bet you'll remember her in a few other movies too, like Ice Princess, Bring It On: All Or Nothing and Racing Stripes.

Haha. So yeah, been watching her shows for like three consecutive days. LOL! And im totally addicted to the new series, Heroes (:

And the rain is getting super annoying these days, especially when you're outside. Its fine when you're at home, wrapped in a blanket and enjoying a hot cup of cocoa. But argh. Now its really getting on my nerves. Its pouring outside now, and im heading to town soon. Argh. Have to bring a jacket along again.

2007-02-26T17:40:00.000+08:00

Went to my Uncle Loh's house on Saturday to host the god-daughter ceremony between my mom and Alyssia. Oh yes, Alyssia's gona be my god-sister. She's in this photo with my brother. And she looks great with her newly-cut hair. =D Definitely looking chubbier. HEE!

And yeah, i decided to try if i can carry her on my shoulders like how my dad used to carry me when i was young. She kept tugging on my hair the whole time. I felt as though i was about to go bald man!

That's Alyssia with the dog and her younger sister, Adeli in the top and bottom photo respectively. Adeli is super adorable, always listening to her older sister's demands. LOL!

The entire day was quite alright. Watched the Liverpool match at Uncle Loh's house. HEE! Liverpool scored four goals against nothing, with two penalties and finishing off with a gerrard goal! =D Was super duper exhausted by the time i got home and spent the whole of Sunday watching Heroes on Star World. Its actually a pretty nice show.

And yeah, I skipped school today again. And ZhuYin is blaming me for not attending school with her. But i can't help it. I watched the Carling Cup Finals last night. It was really nice. Chelsea won the match with a 2-1 against Arsenal. LOL! Towards the end of the game, there was even a conflict and three red cards and two yellow cards were issued.

And yep. Collected my testimonial today. Mdm Suhaily was singing praises of me in the testimonial, stating i have the natural leadership skills, a flair for creativity, cheerful and all that crap. HEE! She made me sound so enthusiastic about choir all the time. LOL!

HEE! Okay. Off to guitar class now. Tata =D

This ain't a scene

2007-02-21T20:21:00.000+08:00

New Years was just normal for me. But sadly, there seems to be lesser and lesser money collected over the years. Oh man. But well, my childhood friends came to my house on Monday for another gathering. I was like up early in the morning to clean up the house. HEE. This is my granny here with Nicky on her lap, while i mop the floor. Isn't this cute? Hehe.

And oh yes. While waiting for the rest of the guys to come, the three of us went shopping at vivo. Thank God a few shops were open. And Forever21 has never been that empty. LOL! So yeah, these three shopaholics went shopping like crazy. I bought like two outfits just in one shop. =D And the best thing about shopping during New Years, is that if you're short of cash, there's always the ang bao money. =D

After shopping, we met up with the rest at West Mall to catch the epic movie. And oh man. Don waste your money on it man. It's like an hour plus and its so fucking lame. LOL! So after that, went back to my place and made a video with these three above as the stars. LOL! Jonathan and Stanley were the guitarists and Cyrus was the Capo. LOL! Sadly i don have the video yet. Ill show you guys once i have it eh?

Just chilling while waiting for the video to be ready. Hehe.

Oh well, im still contemplating on whether to continue going for the three month course at M.I or not. Im getting a lil lazy to attend the classes already. LOL! Im loving life now. =D Just hoping JurongJc will accept me. I don want to travel so far every morning just to attend school man. LOL!

Snow

2007-02-16T15:45:00.000+08:00

Valentines this year was slightly different from the past four years. In secondary school, its more of a time to present gifts to all our friends and loved ones. Last year, Andrea and I had loads of fun making the 'fake' rose for all of our friends. We took a lot of time and effort just to make the rose. HEE =D Last year was also one of the sweetest valentines i had, if you know what i mean.

This year may not be with my secondary school friends, and well, him, but i did have fun with Si jia. We went suntanning at sentosa on valentines. We practically sat on the beach for four hours straight under the hot and blazing sun. And well, tanning did pay off. I have like sun burn on my shoulders man! AHH!!

After tanning, i went for dinner with darian whereas si jia went for her dinner date too. It was pretty nice. Received a bouquet of roses and a jar of homemade cookies from him. I really didn't expect this. Thanks a lot! Haha. And had a little difficulty shopping with him since the bouquet was so big. LOL! After that, returned home to find another bouquet of roses and a box of chocalates from yong seng. Haha. Thanks a lot eh?

Haha. And im actually supposed to attend school on Thursday. But well, couldn't be bothered since it was my brother's birthday and my new curtains will be coming in in the afternoon. HEE =D My room's like looking great now. All its lacking is those pretty soft lighting to make the room cosier. =)

And oh yah. Im totally addicted to the song 'Snow (Hey Oh)' by the Red Hot Chilli Peppers now. LOL! Yeah i also don know why its such a sudden thing, i just browsed through my list of songs and started listening to it again. Hee. Enjoy =D

Hee. Alright. Gona go shopping with Sijia later. Ill update another time. Tata!

Total Idiot

2007-02-12T18:02:00.000+08:00

Oh man. Nicky has ticks. I discovered a few this afternoon. So i went down to the pet shop below my block to buy the tick/flea spray. Chatted with this guy who was waiting for his dog. He gave me some really useful tips, like i shouldn't bring Nicky to those grassy areas, whereby there are loads of ticks. I felt like a total idiot who don know how to take care her dog. Haha.

After that, I went home to spray the tick spray on Nicky, and used tweezers to pull the ticks out. It was super duper gross man. But thank god it didn't bleed. And let me tell you, it ain't an easy job man. Nicky kept moving the entire time. It was so hard to get Nicky to settle down. But well, i only managed to pull the tick's body out. So like the head's still stuck inside. Oh man. Hope Nicky will be alright. Im bringing him to the vet tomorrow morning to check up on him.

And yeah, i think im gona send in my jae application form later. I think ive made up my mind. I got lots of advice from people last night. So yeah, hopefully i make the right choice that won't ruin my future man. And well, im keeping my fingers crossed for now. Hoping and praying that JurongJC will accept me. I don want to wake up so early to attend a far away JC man. So yeah, now i wish i would have done better for my o's.

Alrighty. Gotta go for guitar class with Stanley now. Tata. =D

Home

2007-02-11T01:09:00.000+08:00

Hehe. The liverpool match just ended. And well, darling gerrard kept missing his shots and shot lots of high balls instead. But he did look super adorable, rubbing his palms together, in anticipation of the second half. Bellamy played pretty well in the first half and scored the first goal within the first six mintues. But the match took an ugly turn when reina came too far out and let in an open goal. ARGH! What makes things worse, the second goal was by penalty. STUPID! I'm so not happy now.

But well, before that, i went to ngee ann poly with Nithya in the morning to enquire about some courses. Then, went for the innova open house with darian. The open house was damn sucky. All we did was walk two rounds around the stadium in the hot, scorching sun. But well, saw Nigel, We Jie, Kelvin, Hasper, Vishal and Marcus there too. Haha. And dear Andrea, sadly, what you have predicted was wrong. LOL!

After that, headed to YishunJc open house and met Jackson there. Coincidentally, met Shaf at YJC tending his stall. After all that, i went to my granny's house for an early reunion dinner. And hehe. My granny gave me 200 bucks as a reward for my results. My aunts and uncles were also satified with it and gave me advices as to the next path to take. Thanks =D And oh, i realised i haven announce my results. Im quite satisfied with my results. And my result slip looks good with only As and Bs. Hee. Here are my results.

English: B3
Humanities: B3 ( HUGE SHOCKER! )
Mathematics: A2 ( I wanted an A1 though =( )
Additional Mathematics: A2
Physics: B3
Chemistry: B3 ( Are you sure they gave me the right grade? )
Chinese: B3

So anyway, reunion dinner practically serves the same dishes every year. But it was nice seeing my young cousins again.

My adorable cousin who looks like me when i was young. Small eyes and super cheeky. Hehe =D

And oh yah! Skipped school on Wednesday too. Hehe, went to sentosa with my girls, Isabel and Nithya. Headed to Sentosa to get an early start on tanning with Nithya as Isabel had school. It was really nice spending the day relaxing under the sun along with the soothing sound of the crashing waves. Everything was perfect and we talked about almost everything under the sun. Hee, I'll post up more pictures in the next entry, once i've gotten the photos from Nithya ya. Here are a couple of pictures only.

Should I Stay

2007-02-06T14:54:00.000+08:00

Hehe. I didn't attend school today. Made use of my bad cough to call in sick for the day. School has got a lot going on lately. Plenty of problems are starting to arise within my clique. And argh. I can't do much about it, so i can't be bothered. Ill just let the rest take care of it and keep it real. Almost everything i do can come across as a wrong sign. So what am i supposed to do? I'll rather just keep my distance for now. Since well, results are gona be out on friday already.

Hee drawn this Liverpool logo during class. Almost the same as the real thing eh? =D

Oh and how can i forget to show you guys this good news?! Check this out man. I'm so proud and happy. =D

Steven Gerrard has seen off stiff competition from Lionel Messi and Cristiano Ronaldo to make it into the uefa.com Team of the Year.

The Liverpool skipper was voted Europe's best right-winger by football fans across the continent. Almost four million votes were cast by uefa.com users, with three Premiership stars making the final cut.

The team in full is:
Gianluigi Buffon (Juventus)
Gianluca Zambrotta (Barcelona)
Fabio Cannavaro (Real Madrid)
Carles Puyol (Barcelona)
Philipp Lahm (Bayern Munich)
Steven Gerrard (Liverpool)
Cesc Fabregas (Arsenal)
Kaká (AC Milan)
Ronaldinho (Barcelona)
Thierry Henry (Arsenal)
Samuel Eto'o (Barcelona)

Irreplaceable

2007-01-27T09:46:00.000+08:00

Hee, im here to update! It has been an eventful week, leaving me no time to catch my breath. Haha. And i think i've gotten used to the 8 hours sleep per day, kinda thing. I woke up early even on a Sunday morning!

Anyways, School ended early on Wednesday. So went to the Library with my group mates to do our GP project. We managed to finish within an hour or so. After that, went to Causeway Point with bryan, darian and yong seng. it was pretty fun. Lunched at Pastamania, then walked around causeway aimlessly. The three guys all took turns to carry my heavy bag, as i had my laptop inside. I felt pretty bad, but i think without them, my shoulders would have break. LOL! Yeah, so thanks alot!

Hee, on friday, my friends and i went to the Nanyang Poly open house. We even went to the extent of bringing our own clothes to change as we didn't want to look like some secondary three students exploring the place. Haha. The open house was rather dull compared to the Ngee Ann poly open house though. But we kept ourselves occupied by taking loads of pictures. Haha. I think i took so much until i can feel my smile turning fake. LOL!

Here are the guys looking retarded with their somewhat 'kissing' pose. LOL!

Heres yong seng, regina and i. LOL! I was on the phone with my brother while taking this picture. Haha. Pretty natural eh?

See this board im holding? AHEM, irwin stole it from there. Haha. It was actually pretty cool. I look like some director that's gona shout 'cameras, lights, action!' right? LOL!

Heres bryan and i at the mrt station. LOL! We're all on our way to town, then stopped to take a picture here. LOL! We look like some dumb tourists right? Haha. Bryan and i are planning to find a church together. Its such a coincidence that we're both methodists. Hee, can't wait to start going to church again. I feel a need to restore my faith man.

Haha. Irwin and i here! We both started the art of seduction thing within our group. LOL! Everyone has been grossed out by what we've been doing. LOL!

Hee, anyways, that was all for Friday. Saturday started off with an early start. Went for guitar class with Stanley in th morning, then headed to Andrea's house for our long awaited jamming session. Haha. And guess what? Andrea's house has the igallop and isymphonic thing now. LOL! Here's edsmond looking super duper retarded in the igallop thing. Haha. I think im gona head to Andrea's house more often for the relaxing massage chair. LOL!

Finally i was able to relax at home on Sunday. Couldn't make it for Isabel's confirmation as it was pretty busy in the house. Sorry girl! But anyways, brought Nicky down for a walk. Haha. Here's a picture of Nicky drinking water out of the bottle. Haha. He looks super cute here. =D

Yeah, im down with a very bad cough and flu. Hee, hopefully it'll be bad enough so i can skip school. LOL! Alright, i off to practise on my guitar. Tata!

Look What You've Done

2007-01-22T21:12:00.000+08:00

Haha. School was really fun today. I spent almost the whole day teasing most of the guys who are Manu fans in class. I went around saying ' AHEM, who lost and who won?!' LOL! And then they'll go around dissing liverpool again. Hahaha. And yeah! I get a treat from Darian as he won 50 bucks from betting on the Manu and Arsenal match. Hehe. =D

This is samantha and me. After school, headed to west mall to eat with bryan, wen jie, yong seng, irwin, rong yi, jian qing, samantha and darian. Finally settled at the westmall foodcourt and began to play card and finger games. LOL! Was super fun. Darian was like super slow in the finger games. Everyone was like sabotaging him. LOL! Poor Darian. Hahaha.

Haha. Was really nice just hanging out with them. We spent like close to three hours just sitting there playing and stuff. Heres some random photos that the lousy photographer, Wen jie took.

Everyone here's just bored while waiting for the rest to buy their food. Haha. And oh man. Got chem homework again. Gotta do em now before i sleep. Alrights. Tata =D

Moneymaker

2007-01-21T19:35:00.000+08:00

Phew. It has been a long and tiring weekend. Painted my room an earth yellow on saturday. I almost had a kink in my neck after painting my room for four hours!

Woke up at seven in the morning to have breakfast. Then we started moving the furniture out of my room. My dad was in charge of dismantling my old double decker bed. So the rest of us had to carry the heavy planks of wood down the stairs and discard it by the rubbish chute. Mind you, its not an easy task. We took like three to four hours bringing the parts down and taking out the other stuff that were hanging on the wall. So yep. It was quite a task. Haha.

My brother and mom here carrying the bed frame out. Haha. Yeah i know my old bed looks childish. That's the reason why im getting it replaced right. Haha.

Yes, all of us wore caps while painting. LOL! It makes us look like construction workers right. Haha. After painting and all, went to Isabel's house to catch the very first showdown, Liverpool VS Chelsea. Hehe. Liverpool was already in the lead by the fourth minute. Chelsea's defence was practically in shambles. The Anfield fortress was like back in place! =D Haha.

Woke up in the afternoon the next day. Hee. Sunday afternoon was like wasted just by fixing my bed. Now my room only has one pathetic bed and nothing else! Going to get the rest of the furniture with my mom soon. (I hope!) Anyway, have to sleep early tonight then sneak out at midnight to catch the Manu match later on. Hee. Nights!

All Good Things

2007-01-19T23:12:00.000+08:00

School ends at half past twelve for most of the M.I students. But not my class. We had to go through one last agonising 45mintues of maths lessons before we are dismissed. Haha.

After school, my classmates and i headed to the ngee ann poly open house. There are yong seng, si jia, regina, bryan, yong ann, darian and irwin. Haha. Jevon came and meet us a little later. We went to grab a bite at king albert park's macdonalds first, before heading there.

Honestly, i prefer ngee ann poly to singapore poly. And if my results aren't promising (TOUCHWOOD!), i don mind applying for the early childhood course at ngee ann. Apparently, ngee ann is the only poly that offers this course. Si jia and i were like so fascinated and excited about this course. So yeah. This is actually the only course that interests me other than life sciences.

Hee. Si jia, regina and i here! We were like the only girls among the other six guys. It was a really fun day. And it certainly did change my mind about poly.

And phew. Got home and started to pack all my stuff in a box and shift it to my granny's room. Going to paint my room a earth yellow tomorrow. Hee =D

It Ends Tonight

2007-01-18T21:36:00.000+08:00

Phew. Has been rather long since ive last updated! Anyway, school’s the same old same. Today’s really fun again. Have been in debate with Wen Jie, yong seng and Erwin about soccer ever since they saw my Liverpool water bottle. LOL! All three of them are Manu fans, so im not that surprised when they started dissing Liverpool. Hurmphs! LOL! But thank god there’s at least one Liverpool fan. Hee, Darian, whose also a Capricorn baby, supports the reds too! =D Haha.

And chemistry homework was a killer! Argh! Its like so unfair! The biology teacher allowed bryan to take H1 biology without any bio foundation, but he didn’t allow me! I think he’s like gay or something. It’s sooo unfair! Stupid! I was like super pissed upon hearing the news.

Oh and anyways. If you’ve read my tagboard and Andrea’s blog, you will probably have an idea of who we’re pissed with now. Our stupid drummer has been putting off our jamming sessions just to go out with his friends. And yet, he claims he can only make it in the morning when he knows I have school. What happened to the commitment we promised before school ended? Looks like tapestry 2007’s not gona happen for us at this demoralising rate. Please. I really hope you’ll try to find some time for us, like just keep one of the afternoons free will do. I don want our friendship between the three of us to turn sour just because we don have time for each other anymore.

Smells like teen spirit

2007-01-15T22:40:00.000+08:00

I'm still obsessed with that 'tu amor' song. =D Hee. Got our timetables today. And boy is our class lucky. We ended at 2.45, whereas some classes ended at half past six. Haha.

After school, met up with Stanley to go for my very first guitar class with him. This guitar teacher is far better than those lousy teachers at cristofori. Well, i was pretty alright with all the basics and chords as i already knew them. Now its just practicing to get my fingers in shape. Haha. And ive to change my strings. One of them broke and the rest are rusting. LOL!

Alright. Got to get ready for school already. Nights!

Tu amor

2007-01-14T20:55:00.000+08:00

This has been quite a weekend. Well, lets start with saturday. Went to town with chun ian to catch the liverpool match. We each had our own predictions for the match. And well, loser has to treat the other Ben&Jerrys ice cream. =D And AHEM, guess who won? ME OF COURSE! Haha. I get free ice cream. =D LOL!

Went to Ikea with my parents this afternoon to order the furniture for my room. Sadly most of the items i wanted were out of stock. So we're only painting the room next weekend. =( Have to wait till the end of february then can finish up my room's renovation.

And oh man. Im feeling pretty moody today. It's probably because of the dream i had last night. I dreamt of the past. It was like a series of events between me and him. I dreamt of practically our entire past relationship. From the long walks home, the bus rides, the stairwell and finally to how it eventually ended. I cried, even in my dream, and woke up to tears in my eyes. I guess, occasionally, i still yearn for that love we once had, before studies and distance came between us. But oh well, hopefully ill get pass this soon.

And hee, i LOVE this song! Managed to get hold of the song title and artist after months of fruitless search. Haha. I only knew the tune to the song but not the title till now. THANK GOD! I heard it over the radio and immediately went to check the title through the internet. This is ' Tu Amor' by RBD. I just love the lyrics and his voice. If only someone can serenade this song as well as this guy can right? AHHH!! I think ill fall head over heels for that guy immediately. Haha.

Check out the lyrics and sing to it. =D I think spanish is the ultimate language of love in songs. I can just melt with lyrics and a voice like this. =D

Mi amor I'm not sure of the right words to say
Maybe these simple words will do best to best explain
What I feel in my heart, What I feel more each day
How to make you see, How to let you know
How to say how to say how I love you so
With words you understand
Words that get right through to your heart
Here's the place to start

Chorus:
Tu Amor, I will always be
Tu Amor, means the world to me
Esteras siempre en mi corazon
You're the one in my soul
And I live for tu amor, tu amor

Mi amor love you more with each look in your eyes
Maybe these simple words will do best to best describe
What I feel in my heart, What I'll feel for all time
How to make you see, How to let you know
How to say how to say how I need you so
With words you understand
Words that get right through to your soul
Words that let you know

Chorus

Bridge:
You're the one that I need in my arms
Believe me these words I say are words that come straight from my heart
How do I make you believe
Nothing else means as much as what you mean to me

Chorus

How to save a life

2007-01-11T21:28:00.000+08:00

School was tiring today. No idea why. Maybe economics class wore me out. Hee. Had two periods of maths at first. And then i crashed into chun ian's maths class for another period of math. Im such a nice friend. I crashed the class to accompany him you know. Haha.

Anyways, went to entertainment to eat with chun ian then went back to jurongville to visit the choir. Was really nice seeing dama and kexin again. Missed them so much. It was a pity i didn't go to hongkong with them. I missed out on so many events and nice songs.

It was rather sad to see the lack of discipline among the choir members now. Its as though the choir fell apart after we left. Hopefully they'll buck up and focus on the upcoming SYF competition. And poor Eunice looks totally exhausted today. It reminds me of those hectic days of being in the committee. Haha.

Hee. Heres Nicky. =D Came home to find my brother's friends playing with Nicky. Haha. Nicky's like super exhausted. He was like sound asleep by ten. He won't even wake up when i caress his head. Haha. Alright. Time for me to go to sleep too! Nights.

Beautiful disaster

2007-01-10T21:24:00.000+08:00

Hey hey hey! School was quite fun the past few days. We got posted to our respective combinations and all. Hee, monday and tuesday was just like purely fun. We didn't really care if we were in the right class. Zhu ying and i crashed into chun ian's economics class yesterday. And we totally regretted it! H1 economics was damn BORING! Hee, so zhu ying and i played tic tac toe and word games to keep ourselves occupied. Haha.

Today was quite alright too. But the attendance of the class was officially out. So we had to attend the class which we are each assigned to. My class, 07S12, is damn fun. Made lots of frens again. Hee. But sadly, i had to leave the class as i did not have any biology foundation. Instead, ill be moving over to zhu ying and jevon's class. =D Oh well, i can always make more friends right?

Anyways, went to Sakae Sushi to eat with chun ian after school. Haha. These are all happy food. We ate for like two hours! We practically felt like puking after leaving sakae. LOL! We're like super duper sick of japanese food now. We've been like eating japanese food together for two days in a row! Argh. Sushi turns me off now. Haha.

And oh! Liverpool conceded another three goals to Arsenal during the carling cup this morning. BOOOOO! Im so upset!! =( But well, at least gerrard baby did score a goal. Sigh, hopefully they'll be back for saturday's match against watford. I really hate to see them lose.

Save the last dance for me

2007-01-07T21:56:00.000+08:00

Wow. Have been super busy the past few days. Orientation ended on friday. Hee, life at millenia ain't that bad. I love all my friends in my group and clan! =D Here's Jia yu with me in the photo. She's my closest friend in my group. And guess what? Coincidentally, her birthdate falls on the same day as mine!! Yea, we're both borned in 27December! SO FREAKY AND SUPER COOL!!! Haha.

Anyways, the last two days of orientation was really fun and tiring at the same time. Made lots of new friends. We were required to do this stupid M.I dance on the last day of orientation. So we had this practice on thursday first. Paired up with this guy from Deyi sec. Haha. He's like really shy. I felt like i was the one who was talking non-stop. LOL! I kept talking to Jia yu's partner, Chun Ian instead. LOL! We kept crapping around and stuff.

We got along very well and became friends like instantly. Haha. The four of us were like making fun of everything and danced terribly. And since chun ian stays in boon lay, i'm like his 'going home buddy' now. Haha.

Last day of orientation was super super exhausting. But at the same time, super fun too. We had to practice this friendship dance for the finale. So partnered Hafiz for this dance. Haha. We kept fooling around and all. Was really fun. But sorry hafiz! I didn't want to do the dance in the end cos i was really tired. He was like trying to get me to do the dance but to no avail. Haha. After school, went to town to celebrate sharon and stanley's birthday at swensens. However, i went back early to catch some sleep as i was totally wiped out. Sorry guys!

Attended Melvin and Julie's wedding on Saturday. Julie's looks gorgeous in the dress. The church wedding was rather messy in a way, but sweet at the same time. Lunch reception was yummy yummy. =D Isabel, jonathan, timothy and sharon headed to my house after that. Hee, i helped sharon with her amath homework while the rest were just relaxing in my parent's room. Was a really nice and relaxing day. Had loads of fun and laughter. But well, sharon wasn't feeling too happy due to some problems. I really hope things will be okay ya?

Oh, and im like super upset too! Liverpool conceded two goals at home! =( But well, maybe on the bright side, its only FAcup. They will do better the next time!

Went to collect my puppy today. Hee, isn't he the cutest? Its name is nike. But we call it nicky at home. =D Haha. And you know what? Nicky passed motion on my brother's pants on our way home. It was damn funny. Laughed the whole way back while bearing with the stink in the car. Hahaha! And anyways, today's Shaun's birthday. So, HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHAUN! =D

Hee, ill take more pictures of Nicky tomorrow. Have to head to bed now, got school tomorrow. Nights! =D

Keep holding on

2007-01-03T20:58:00.000+08:00

First day of school at Millenia Institute! Haha. Was really sucky in the beginning. We all felt like sec ones, not knowing what was instored for us at the new campus. Everyone looked so uncomfortable and shy in all our respective groups. It is really rare to see two people from the same school congregate in the same group. There are so many groups that if your fellow friend is in the same group as you, you'll be considered lucky.

Unfortunately, i didn't have that luck. I was stuck in group UTU3 with no friends at all. Faizaa was lucky to have Si hua for company in her group. Whereas the rest of us had to meet new faces alone. Shaun, Zhu Ying and i were complaining that we were the loners. But thankfully, the people around me were super friendly. I started conversations easily with a big hello. And soon after, became close friends with this girl, jia yu, from kcp. Haha. Found out that we got alot in common. We made fun of the Ah lians and i realised that one of nithya's friend, darren was also in kcp. Hee, then we started to comment on the guys in our group. We both agreed that this acs barker guy was hot. Hehe. And there was this ogl leader that was super cute. He is both faizaa and my eye candy. Hee.

And oh. My ogl leader, yong sheng, looks and talks like my tutor, Alvin. He's also the top student of M.I. Everyone in my clan takes him as comic relief because of his super super lame jokes. Recess was also sucky cos everyone was just standing around and crowding around the stairwell, not knowing where to go. We felt like total losers standing there and waiting for don know what. Saw Cheryl sitting with her boyfriend and friends at the canteen and went over to say hello. Was nice seeing a farmiliar face amidst all the confusion. Then spent almost the whole day in the hall listening to talks and stuff. Was pretty boring and my ass practically went numb after sitting for almost two hours.

Was super duper happy when school was finally over. Plus, my phone's repaired already. YEAH! Finally i can send messages without the phone hanging. HEE. =D

When you were young

2007-01-01T22:04:00.000+08:00

Hey hey! HAPPY NEW YEAR TO ALL! =D Spent New Years Eve at Isabel's cousin's house. Was quite alright. Pretty aimless at first but eventually we found something to crap about. And we took lots of pictures at the playground and played with one of the resident's three dogs! Haha. Was really fun. Oh yah. And i got late presents from Ram, Jason and Auntie Clara. Hehe. Got the killers cd from Ram and a bear and cup from Jason. Auntie Clara gave me 50 bucks. Thanks a lot for the prezzies! =D Don have the pictures with me. So ill upload another time. =D

Hehe. And we've finally decided on a puppy. We've switched from a silky terrier to a pomeranian and finally a MINI MALTESE! Ill show you guys pictures once the puppy comes next sunday on the 7 of Jan. =D

Woke up late on the start of the New Year. Spent the rest of the day just cleaning the house and throwing away all the junk. Watched So You Think You Can Dance at night. Allison and Ivan make such a cute couple on stage! =D Rooting for them in the competition. Hehe. Then there's the liverpool vs bolton wanderers match. My gerrard baby scored two mintues after crouch. =D Happy happy! And Kuyt scored the third! WOOT! Three goals is a great start to the New Year. Hehe. And Gerrard did this cute bow after he scored. AHHH! STEVEN GERRARD'S THE BOMB! Haha. =D

And i'm got news for you guys!! =D =D Gerrard Baby was awarded an MBE in the Queen's New Year's Honours list. Hehe. Check out this news. I'm super proud. =D

Gerrard can now look forward to a trip to Buckingham Palace to collect his award after an inspirational couple of years as Liverpool skipper during which he has led the Reds to Champions League and FA Cup glory.

"I am absolutely thrilled and honored to receive this recognition for
playing a game I've loved all my life," Gerrard said.

"This is a good reward for Steve because he's a nice boy, a good professional and the captain of this club," said Benitez, who is pictured above congratulating Gerrard at Melwood. "Everyone must be very proud of him, but I would also say this is an award for the club, the supporters, his team-mates and his coaches.

There can be few modern-day footballers who so perfectly embody their club, fans and city as Steven Gerrard. The England midfielder, now MBE, is Liverpool. A born and bred Scouser, he is a one club man. The surprise is that it has taken so long for him to be honoured.

Oh yah. My 2007 New Year Resolutions.

(1) To love and cherish my friends and family

(2) To start attending church

(3) To get in shape and to join back windsurfing

(4) To sharpen up my guitar skills

(5) To learn to make the best out of every situation

(6) To renovate my room

(7) To be responsible in taking care of my new dog

(8) To keep in touch with my secondary school friends

Who i am hates who i've been

2006-12-30T22:36:00.000+08:00

Met up with Shermin and Nithya today. Went to Liquid Kitchen to eat and drink. Hehe. Ordered Fondue, mexican chicken wings and alcohol. Haha. Today was really nice. It was as though i helped match make the long time primary school best friends, nithya and shermin together. Was really nice to see them catch up with old times. =D After that, met up with nigel for a while to pass him a liverpool calendar as his xmas present. Was really nice to see him again. Haha. Got to see his permed hair. LOL! It looks like a wig on him, but he still looks good nevertheless. =D

Here are the pictures for today's outing. =D

I've sent my phone for repair and won't get it back till wednesday. Oh man. I don know how im gona live without my phone! Yeah, so anyways, don call my phone the next few days alright. =D Yeah. I actually bought a puppy this morning. But ill only get it on wednesday, after the puppy is vacinated. Haha. However, apparently, silky terrier aren't cute when they grow up. They're only cute when they are in the puppy stage. So my family decided to call the place up and request for a change of dog. Haha. Going over to pasir ris to change the dog tomorrow morning before we head to the new year eve party.

Let me show you the young silky terrier and the grown up version and you'll understand.

Anyways, i really feel that i didn't elucidate things properly to some people. Thats why misunderstandings keep occuring. I did alot of self reflection on my long bus ride home from woodlands. Honestly, i never did treat the guys that ive dated after nigel as a substitute of him. I confirmed my feelings for the opposite party first before agreeing to a relationship. No one was a substitute for anybody. I do know that if they are, it would be totally unfair to the other party.

I did move on from that relationship with my ex-ex. I spent nights crying myself to sleep for almost three months. And i did move on from there. He was the only guy i ever shed my tears for, and i know that its impossible for us to go on due to distance, time and school. The other two guys ive dated after him were not substitutes. I truly did fall for them but things just didn't work out. There was always something missing and that intense love just died after sometime. With my latest relationship, everything that i felt was genuine and i did not end the relationship because i am still in love with my ex-ex. I was unhappy and miserable with the way things are going and i can't seem to connect with him anymore. I was too tired to think and what makes things worse is that we have absolutely different thinkings.

Loving my ex-ex was just something that has been hidden deep down in my heart. The part whereby those wonderful memories were kept. It was unlocked when i compared the miserable state i was in to the past. I began to fall for that guy i remember so vividly in my mind. I wanted him back, to be able to fall madly in love again. This mentality only happened a few days before our breakup- when we were on a timeout. You may say i am immature, but i do need time to learn and grow. You can't expect me to grow up so fast. And i am happy the way i am. My thinking was torned between reality and the past. I wanted to end the relationship when i felt that our love was merely to a certain extent. Love is when you love everything about the person including his flaws. Despite giving a try to accept his flaws, i just can't do it. And as time went by, the flaws was all that i see that made me miserable.

An apology was all that i could offer. I am truly sorry for the way things have turned out to be. I never meant for him to get hurt. I know ive made lots of mistakes in this relationship and i am learning from them. I believe there will be another for you, but the girl's just not me. Perhaps in time to come, we can continue to be friends we once were.

Sweet Sixteen

2006-12-28T23:04:00.000+08:00

AHEM! This is a sixteen year old girl talking to you now. Haha. FINALLY SIXTEEN! You have no idea how everyone has been tormenting me with the fact that im still a small girl, whereas they all have had their sweet sixteens. Haha. So yep, not a good thing having your birthday near xmas too. People's gona combine your xmas and birthday presents together. Not a good thing. Haha. But thankfully, my besties always give me two seperate presents. =D Hehe.

Anyways, i wana say a big thanks to those to wish me happy birthday. Heres thanks to: My family, Andrea, Beeping, Edsmond, Faizaa, Isabel, Nithya, Christine, Christine's friend, Sharon, Ram, Michelle, Jason, Stanley, Uncle leong, Uncle Bala, Leslie, Iris, Vishal, Zhenqiang, Shi Jin, Suritno, Shi Jie, Htein Lin, Benson, Pei Ru, Marilou, Zu Er, Kinshen, Divya, Felicia, Hui Qing, Shaun, Theresa and Jonathan. Thanks for remembering. It means alot to me. =D

Oh yah. To my primary school friends: I'm so sorry i can't spend my birthday with you guys. I missed you guys!! But my parents already took leave and planned my birthday. So i couldn't possibly refuse. Im daddy's little girl no matter what. Haha.

Went to Sentosa to try the Carlsberg sky tower ride. My dad thought it'll be fun to check out Sentosa. So well, here we are. Haha. With my brother here. He looks so cock eyed here lah! LOL! So funny.

Oh oh!! My brother and i finally managed to convince my parents to get us a dog. Hehe. IM GONA GET A PUPPY!!!!!! WEEEEE~ Im happy happy. =D Going over to SPCA on friday to see if we can adopt a puppy. Can't wait. Hee.

Anyways, went to town with Hui Qing on thursday. LOL! Which is today lah. Was pretty aimless. Went to Vivo first to get Hui Qing's pay. Headed to Zara to visit Melissa and Naqiah. Haha. Went to mess up the place and disrupt Melissa working. Haha. Met Shaun and Vishal in town. Must be on a date. Haha. Oh yah. Hui Qing gave me four presents to be exact! Hehe. Three from Australia and a pair of earrings. Thanks babe. =D

Yeah, then went to city hall to get my shoes. Hehe. Got a discount for my red adidas shoes. =D Was originally 140 bucks, then got a 10% discount. Hee, then i managed to convince the lady to give it to me for 100 bucks. Haha. Im good. =D LOL! Dined at this italian restaurant in Marina after that. Got pretty sick with the cheese and cream sauce pasta. Argh. Felt like puking after eating a quarter of the pasta. I just can't take too much cheese man. After that, roamed around town then went to sixth avenue to see if there's any vacancies for the other corduroy branch. But sadly, there weren't any vacancies. Haha. Oh well, its fated that i remain unemployed. And im loving it. Haha.

Haha. Can't wait to see those adorable puppies tomorrow. =D Tata.

Under the bridge

2006-12-26T23:19:00.000+08:00

HEE =D Woke up at two this afternoon. Hehe. Then met up with Sharon at her house bus stop to take to Vivo. And guess what? We took the bus at the wrong side of the road and headed to Bukit Panjang instead! But luckily, when we realised that we were taking the wrong bus, uncle leong was at home, so he fetched Sharon and i to Vivo instead. Hehe. Was an hour and a half late. Haha. I have officially broken my late record! Haha.

Anyway, headed to Ben & Jerrys to visit Christine at work. Isabel was furious at how late we were. Haha. Ordered a mix and match of three different flavours with hot fudge and toppings. Hee. Christine gave us a large scoop of ice cream. Its nice having a friend working at Ben & Jerrys. Haha.

Christine's boyfriend, Nicholas, sat with us while waiting for her to knock off. AND OH MAN!!! Nicholas looks exactly like Nigel!!!!!! Just a shorter version. He dresses and looks like nigel! He even had nigel's old hairstyle. The one whereby i remember him doing the 'i'm a bloody rocker shake' with his hair. He even dresses like nigel, with identical shoes and pants. I thought i was seeing double! Haha. Even Sharon saw the resemblance. My heart started to race when i thought it was nigel at first. Haha. Was super freaky!

Haha. But anyway, Auntie Emelia (sharon's mum) gave me 50 bucks for my birthday! Thank you so much! =D And Christine got me a pretty jewellery box and earrings. I love it! Thanks guys =D

Hee. Dined at this restaurant opposite Plaza Singapura later with Sharon and Isabel. Really nice ambience here and the food's not bad. Only thing is that the service charge is a FREAKING 11 BUCKS! Haha. Paid 90 bucks for the food.

Hee, after dinner, headed home to catch the liverpool match. But STUPID!! Liverpool lost on my birthday!! =( Im so upset!!!!! The referee was like breathing down their necks and Alonso kept missing his shots! They were so frustrated towards the end of the game. =( Oh well, whats done is done.

I'm so upset now. With the fact that they lost and that he almost forgot my birthday.

Dreaming of a white christmas

2006-12-26T00:27:00.000+08:00

Christmas was alright. But i was feeling pretty moody in the early xmas morning. I kept thinking bout last year, whereby xmas was spent in New Zealand instead. However, last year, i very much wanted to spend xmas and my birthday with him. I recall how much i've missed him but yet, when i came back to s'pore, i didn't know how to express how much i missed him over the two week holiday. That's one stupid mistake i made.

Lately, it dawned on me that i still feel something for him despite dating another two guys after our breakup. I'm not saying that those two guys were subsitutes. But its just that, i did not love them deep enough. It was always to a certain extent, and chemistry died really fast. And somehow, i didn't think they understood me enough. They were always expecting things from me. However, i did fall head over heels for him. I loved him for everything he is despite his flaws. Its like i know him inside out. Even now, small little things can jolt me back to those sweet memories of him.

Many have said that we look good together, and my besties are all hoping that there might be a good chance that we'll get back together. I am hoping that a miracle like that will happen this christmas season but i can't deny the fact that the distance and time may be too much to handle especially with him having a major exam next year. I want the best for him. And isn't christmas all about giving?

I still thank God for a wonderful christmas. I like talking to him again. And as much as i want to see him again, i know i shouldn't, cause i know i might fall for him. But im still happy that we're on talking terms. =D

Hee, even though it was a moody christmas morning, my mood improved in the presence of family and friends. Went over to isabel's place as usual for our xmas gathering. Presents were kinda little cos sadly, people prefer to give money instead of presents. =( But its alright, money's good too. =D Got a liverpool calendar and earrings from Isabel as birthday and xmas presents. =D Thanks babe. Haha. I think im getting late presents this year.

Hehe. Its so nice that Christine's finally 18! Now she can buy alcohol for us legally! =D Hee, she bought Hooters for us to share. And heres Isabel lecturing Alyssia on why she shouldn't drink alcohol. Haha.

Hee. Nithya and i here! Haha. After eating and all, just spent the night in Isabel's room with everyone. Was really nice, just having girl talk. LOL! The guys were just listening patiently to what we've got to say. Then just got into this huge soft toy fight, throwing soft toys at each other. Haha. Was actually pretty fun. Everyone kept screaming and we all felt like children again, not caring about the world or the problems, just screaming and having fun. Haha. I love it. Been so long since ive screamed or let every emotion that ive bottled up inside all out. It feels so good to scream. Haha. Soft toy fights are fun. Hee =D

Anyway, it has been a great day! Going out with Sharon, Isabel and Nithya tomorrow. The girls wana celebrate my birthday in advance. =D Hee, can't wait to try out liquid kitchen.

A public affair

2006-12-24T20:48:00.000+08:00

Christmas eve is here! Hee, went for sharon's housewarming last night. Reached home at bout 3am last night. Damn tired. Watched Night at the Museum at West Mall. Hee, its a pretty funny show, and i missed my match just to watch this movie. Hee, but happy happy, liverpool scored two goals at home. HEE =D

Had a nice girl talk at coffee bean while waiting for the show to start. All of us were pouring our heart and soul out on our past relationships that have hurt us badly. And wow. Sharon's really lucky to have Michelle as a sister. She's really wise and gives really good advices. =D And it has been so long since we've all met up. It was pretty nice. =D

With Jason here. Yeah i know i look funny again. =(

Random random. All trying to decide what to do before the show.

An accapella performance from Sharon, Stanley, Jason and Michelle, singing 'I can only imagine'. They sang three songs actually. But i'm not too sure about the titles for the other two songs. So i decided not to upload. Hee.

Anyway, went last minute xmas shopping with my mum on xmas eve. Bought everything for everyone already. Hee, and i got a baby doll dress for myself, along with earrings, pumps and belt. =D Happy happy. Alright, can't wait for tomorrow's xmas party. Presents presents. =D

Smile like you mean it

2006-12-22T23:33:00.000+08:00

Hehe. Went for some choir gathering in the afternoon. Was pretty lame at first. But the games were quite alright. Left early with Afifah, Sujitha and Beeping. As one of the farewell gifts, the juniors have prepared a card and some mini xmas tree thing for the seniors.

Yong ting made this card for me. Was really nice. Haha. Didn't know that she'll steal pictures from my blog to paste on the card. LOL! But its really sweet of her. Haha. And oh yah, Alyssia's gona be my god sister. Everyone keeps asking who she is. But its really hard to explain and tell you guys cause she's like one of the young ones among all my childhood friends. So yeah, to make it easier, she's gona be my god sister. =D

Yeah, anyway, left early to go to Vivo to return my uniform and to get my paycheck. Yep, i'm gona resign from my job. Though i may enjoy work, but i like the 'no-working life' better. Haha. It's more relaxing. =D

My first pay-check. =D Have to get the rest of my money next year. Stupid. Why can't they pay me all at one go? LOL! But oh man, im like so broke getting xmas presents for everyone. I'm giving three quarters of my pay to my parents and granny. ( Yeah i know im filial =D ) So im left with only a little to get myself that liverpool jacket ive been eyeing for. I've to hurry get through this month with no money left. =( Anyone wants to give me a treat? Im free anytime! Hee =D

Anyway, im feeling pretty happy today. Andrea knows why. Haha. Alright. Off to watch Survivor now. Tata.

Candy Shop

2006-12-21T22:37:00.000+08:00

Just came back from Vietnam. The trip was damn sucky. The tour guide was disorganised and took us to the wrong places! The trip seemed more like a spiritual journey instead. We keep visiting churches and temples. And oh man, we kept eating chinese food at every meal! Ive never been so sick of seafood! Anyways, didn't do much shopping in the end. The whole trip just flew by. And the best part of the trip was definitely the hotel and ROOM SERVICE! =D Hee.

Hee, we're at the airport busy taking photos. Haha. Isn't this cute?

And woah. This is one of the best tiramisu i've ever eaten. It's served with a chocalate spoon you know! CHOCALATE SPOON! How cool is that?! Haha. I was practically smiling while eating the cake. =D

We're in one of the tunnels in Vietnam. It was built during the Vietnam war against the Americans. Those vietnamese people actually lived in this narrow tunnels! They're like freaking skinny lah. But oh well, living here helped to win the war didn't they? But honestly, i was actually amazed at how smart the vienamese people are.

With my brother here. He looks so country in this checkered shirt right? Haha.

Haha. Quite a funny side right? My family all wearing the traditional Vietnam hats sitting on a sampan.

Hehe. Nithya and i walking down the steps to the tunnel. We're both feeling cheeky. =D

This is where the soldiers use to dine. It's like super dusty down here. And its only because of the flash that it seems so bright down here!

Feels damn good to be home! Haha. But oh man, have to come up with something for the speech at the choir's year end party happening tomorrow. Hee, and ive decided to resign. It feels so good not doing anything during the holidays. Haha. So yep, have to give back my uniform tomorrow. Alrighty. Ill head to bed first. Nights! =D

Playing Favourites

2006-12-15T22:15:00.000+08:00

Hee. Yaya. Wow. It has been SO LONG since ive last saw ya. I miss school. LOL! Well, i think Andrea's like the bestest friend anyone can have. She gives like really good advices and makes you feel better when you're feeling down.

Man. I had alot going on in my head today. And it feels good letting it all out about how i really feel. Thanks Andrea for listening. =D

Hee, watched project runway on discovery travel and living. It was awesome. And well, JEFFREY WON!!!! Hee, SEE!!! All those that i support will always win the contest. Haha. Yeah, I know channel five shows it next week. But muahahaha, i know the result already!! HEE =D

Going to Vietnam tomorrow. Hee, can't wait! Gona take loads of pictures with Isabel and Nithya again. Haha. Until then, see ya six days later!

I KNOW HER PASSWORD!

2006-12-15T16:30:00.000+08:00

HELLO! ANDREA'S IN THE HOUSE! EEVIN, TAKE A LOOK AT THIS POST!

Strawberry Smiles

2006-12-14T22:19:00.000+08:00

Just came back from sleepover. It was really fun. We slept at like 8am after spending the whole night talking and watching movies and woke up at around 2, some around 4. LOL! It has been so long since we've organised sleepovers, so it was really nice. =D

Hee, this is me caught off guard watching movies with my pals. I look like some primary four kid with my baby face. =( Hurmphs. And ahem, i'm so not biting my nails in the photo. I don't bite my nails!

We had our breakfast at 5 in the evening at Sakae Sushi. LOL! Yeah, you heard it right. Its breakfast in the evening! Haha.

Walked past Pet Safari while heading back to the house. Ain't these dogs the sweetest thing you've ever laid eyes on? They look so adorable playing with their doggie toys!! I WANT A DOG!!!
Haha. This is Jon's manicure, courtesy of Isabel. LOL! It looks like oreos!!! YUM! Hey, don't get the wrong idea, i so don't want to eat jon's fingers. Hahaha.

And hey guys, this is a video of Stanley playing the song, Pieces by Sum41, with jon as the extra in the background. LOL! I'm gona be joining Stanley for private guitar lessons soon!! I heard the teacher's a pretty famous guitarist in Singapore. Hee =D Oh man. Stan's like better at guitar than me now. My fingers are back to it's stiff self. Hopefully the lessons with Stan will give me wonder fingers! Hee. Can't wait for the lessons to start! =D

Had a great time. Now im off to bed to recharge myself. I need sleep!! Haha. Night guys! =D

Beautiful awakening

2006-12-12T22:22:00.001+08:00

Hee, It's time for updates again!! Went to this Malay wedding with my parents on Sunday. Haha. It was like we just went there for brunch. All we did there was just eat and look happy. LOL! The bride's my father's friend. So it was pretty wierd seeing my father socialising while my mum, my brother and i just sit at one corner eating. LOL!

Here's my brother munching on ham at the supermarket. He looks like he has an extra flap of tongue dangling from his mouth right?! Hahahaha. We needed to get some groceries from home before heading to Vivo. I had night shift, so my parents went for a movie while waiting for me to knock off. Hee, i managed to convince them to wait for me till eleven. Cos there was a pool match at eleven. And i don't want to miss the whole match!! Anyway, that match was great. Liverpool scored like four goals! With, of cos, my baby scoring the first goal! HAPPY HAPPY! =D

Oh yah. Cherie Lian went to England this holidays. Hee, i asked her to get me a liverpool souvenier, in case they happen to visit anfield or something. MANN!! IM SO JEALOUS!!! Haha. It was a good thing her dad's a pool fan too. So he can like pick out the best souvenier any pool fan can have. HEE =D but sadly, on the way back, cherie's bag was stolen, along with all the souveniers she got for all of us, including a LIVERPOOL ONE!!!! SOBBBBSSSSS =( Why does the world have to be so evil? =(((( Can't the theifs think of those people back home, who are looking forward to all those souveniers that will be so so dear to them? MEANIES!!

Haha. But well, work's pretty fun. And well, im not gona be resigning. Instead, ill just be stopping work for a while, just to rest and enjoy the holidays. Haha. Well, worked afternoon shift today with hui qing and yu ting. WOW. Finally the three of us are working together. LOL! Had loads of fun just talking and fooling around at work.

Check out the pair of shoes and stockings on the right. Well, that's hui qing's. LOL! She wore her father's shoes to work. Haha. She looks like someone who just undergo a sex change or something. LOL! Have been laughing the whole time with yu ting on how ridiculous hui qing looked. HAHAHA! Our shift ends at four today. WEE~ But Hendra misses me! hahaha. He was willing to pay me 6.50 an hour to keep him company all the way until eleven. LOL! Crazy!! I'll rather stay at home and watch tv at night. Haha.

And well, if you guys are thinking of dining at corduroy cafe in vivo, give me a holla, ill recommend all the yummy food they have there! =D

Twisted Transistor

2006-12-10T01:32:00.000+08:00

Hey guys! Hee, i've got a new voting scheme for all you soccer people out there. They're selecting the UEFA team of the year now, with the final team being announced on January 19. The nominees for each position will be chosen by the uefa .com staff.

You can vote for the team in this following website: http://www.uefa.com/ Once you've entered the site, click the Team Of The Year Nomination button. And Voir la! You can start voting! You can only vote once, so choose your players carefully!

Hee, this is what i've nominated.

Goalkeeper Gianluigi Buffon

Right Back Emmanuel Eboue

Left Back John Terry

Central Defender William Gallas

Left Back Gvan Bronckhorst

Right-Midfield Steven Gerrard =D

Central Midfield Cesc Fabregas

Attacking Midfield Michael Ballack

Left-Midfielder Ronaldinho

Forward Thierry Henry

Forward Didier Drogba

Coach Jurgen Klinsmann

So, VOTE FOR STEVEN GERRARD!! =D Though he's better in central midfield, but who cares? Don't vote for Ronaldo!! That ugly, cheating player! LOL!

Gallery

2006-12-08T11:30:00.000+08:00

Phew. Have been working for ten hours the past two days. Yeah, I know you guys are expecting me to complain about work again right? But actually, no i'm not. Work's actually pretty fun now. LOL! There's this hot guy working part-time with us now. And there're people like Kim, Jia Hui, Yu ting, Hendra, Haliq, Alex, Siti and the Japanese steward. Haha. Can't really remember the other guys' names. LOL! But it's funny how I can only remember most of their names only after the fifth day of work. Haha.

They're a really fun group of people to work with. Especially Hendra. LOL! We'll joke around along with the rest whenever we're bored with the crowd. And Alex's really nice. He cooked meatballs and muffins for us to munch on. Haha. But we have to eat discreetly, or else the head chef would make a whole lot of noise.

Jamie Yeo also turned up at our cafe for a photo shoot on Wednesday. She's like really tall and pretty. Haha. She was like asking us not to work so hard and relax in the morning. Hee, and the Japanese Steward missed me you know! Haha. He was like asking how come i wasn't at work on Monday and Tuesday. LOL!

Haha. It's also pretty fun to just make fun of the customers. Those arrogant, snobbish and dumbass customers who don't know if chardonnay is a white or red wine. And they pretend to know everything. Come on man. Even i, a sixteen year old, knows how to look at wine! LOL!

Oh man. Now i'm kinda dreading for next tuesday to come. LOL! Yeah, I know im wierd. But i guess i've gotten use to work already. I'm gona miss working with them!

Wee~ Going to town to catch a movie and shopping with Isabel later. Have to make it back in time for Ghost Whisperer. It's already the last episode!! It cannot be missed!!

Still waiting

2006-12-05T21:01:00.000+08:00

Man. Was awaken by my granny this morning. She accidentally dropped a pair of pants that was drying by the window. So, i had to go downstairs and get the pants. But well, like my brother said, waking up early means i have more hours with the sun. LOL! that's dumb, but yet logical.

Went to the gym with Beeping in the afternoon, since it was our off-day. Yep. We couldn't stay put at one equipment for long as it always seem to tire us easily. Oh man, i think i better work out more before going back to windsurfing. It will be so embarrassing if i go back with no stamina. Haha.

Spent a great day just talking about stuff. She gave me some really useful advices on how to deal with my problems. Now, i've to really crack my head and think about what i want and should do. Man. Honestly, I'm not really a thinking person. I would rather take things at a time and just live each day as it should be, rather than plan ahead.

Furthermore, ive got stinking work tomorrow. Have to wake up early. =( Oh man, i can't wait for next tuesday to come! PLEASE, PLEASE COME FASTER!!!!

Over my head

2006-12-04T20:02:00.000+08:00

Wow. Has been sometime since i've updated! I've been fucking tired these days due to late night soccer matches and work.

Firstly, lets start with Friday. Went to town with my girlfriends, Andrea and Beeping. =D Hee, headed to Borders, and i started this huge frenzy when i spotted this Steven Gerrard autobiography book. Gerrard looked damn good on the cover page man! There were like two books. One of them was when Liverpool won the FA cup with Gerrard raising the trophy in honour! The other was just of his handsome face. Haha.

After that, we walked around town aimlessly. And finally settled at this turkish restaurant at Far East. Hee, yummy yummy food! Thanks to Andrea's recommendation. =D And wow, we were sure feeling bloated after that meal. Hee, but it sure was fun hanging out with them again, amidst all the problems that Beeping and i were having at that point of time. But hers were all solved. Really happy for her! =D At least one of us is happy.

Saturday was just all about work and late night soccer matches. Work was just crazy with the amount of people pouring in. Didn't even have time to stop and whine about how my heels is killing me. Thank god Yuting was working on the same shift as me. It was really nice having someone to complain about being the newbie with me. Hee, after work, went over to Isabel's place to watch soccer with the rest of the gang. Liverpool scored four goals that night!!! FOUR!! Was damn happy, now they're currently fifth in the EPL table!!! =D

Hee, I'm gona stop work on the 12 of December. YIPEEEEE!!! Can't wait to stop working. I just hate the fact that i'm working my holidays away. I have the next half of my lifetime to work. So why should i work and waste my childhood away? Haha. Yeah, I know thats just an excuse to rot at home. But hey, what i said is true what. LOL! And when i've finally resigned from my job, i'm so gona go windsurfing, plan sleepovers and just enjoy Christmas and AHEM, my birthday. Hee =D

All or nothing

2006-11-29T00:16:00.000+08:00

Hee, Just ended work. Today's actually my second day of work. Work isn't that bad. But it tends to get a little awkward at times, cos i'm the newbie and sometimes the malay guys converse in malay. But overall, the people there are really friendly and crazy. Haha. And my feet's killing me man. The stupid heels that im wearing is giving me mulitple blisters on my feet.Oh well, hopefully the money earned is worth it.

Haha. And you know what guys? Breaking plates and dropping them, does not dock your pay. LOL! So to andrea and edsmond: I'm still gona get six bucks an hour no matter what. Hee, and for the record, i've not dropped any plates yet! =D Okie Dokie. Real tired now. Im off to bed! Nights =D

Smack that

2006-11-26T21:47:00.000+08:00

SCREAMS* AHHHH!!! Yeah i know, you guys must think that im screaming for joy after gerrard scored his first premiership goal last night. Well, I did scream my lungs out last night and went running and jumping around the house. Haha.

But sadly, now im screaming because my hair's so fucking ugly now. Stupid hairdresser went to cut my fringe like ULTRA short!! I look like some Japanese doll now. BOOOOOO!! =( Tomorrow's my first day of work somemore. I don want to make an ugly impression. =( Why? WHY DID I CUT MY HAIR?!?! Oh man, have to wait for at least two weeks before my hair will grow an inch. I feel like crying now. Boooo! I've to stay away from cameras and anything that will retain this memory of a bad hair cut.

Now I've to go figure out a way to tie my hair in a 'not so ugly' way. =( I need my fringe back!! BOOOOO! =(

Your call

2006-11-25T00:03:00.000+08:00

Woke up late today. Then headed down to Vivo City with Karmila, hoping that she can get the same job as me in corduroy cafe. But sadly, there wasn't any vacancies for part-time jobs anymore. So we decided to go shopping instead. =D

Hee, went to a couple of shops to shop, and to help karmila ask for job vacancies. Then realised that Andrea, Edsmond and Yew Leong were in Vivo too, so decided to meet with them so karmila can have someone to look for jobs with. Haha. I was so damn proud of my job, cos almost all the places that we went only paid like four bucks per hour. LOL! And the swensens manager sounded super demanding in the interview. I had to like wait super long for the interview to end. What worst, is i couldn't sit with them as i wasn't applying for a job. So i had to stare into blank space and just wait.

Hee, but after the long wait, karmila and I went to secret recipe to eat. Andrea and the rest left for some kbox interview though. Hee, I tried chocalate banana and karmila tried the marble cheesecake. Believe it or not, I've never tried secret recipe's cake before till now. Heard they were famous for their cakes, so decided to give it a try. It was actually pretty good.

After that, I went to orchard to meet my mum for dinner. Marcus had to work today again. It seemed as though he had to work everyday, thus we can't really spend much time together. Was pretty pissed when he told me he had to work like almost everyday, cos he was the one that promised that we could spend more time together after the o's. I even requested that my working days be no more than four days so that i can spend time with him, friends and family. Sigh. Forget it, if he has to work then so be it. I don wana bother. Okie dokie, off to play xbox now. Tata =D

A thousand smiles

2006-11-23T20:54:00.000+08:00

I'm here to update!! Hee, went over to shaun's chalet on monday, after landing a job at the corduroy cafe at vivo city with Faizaa. Wee~ I'm starting work next week.

Well, this week has been rather fruitful. Went shopping with my girlfriends on wednesday and started taking loads of pictures with all the pretty christmas lightings at orchard with our very own photographer-Marcus.

Oh Geez, thats gerrard right there. Haha. I was like screaming away when we were approaching the Adidas store cos i knew there was a huge poster of Gerrard right at the entrance. Hee. Wonder what will happen if I were to see him face to face. =D And Gerrard baby finally scored a goal on this morning's match against psv eindhoven match. I'm a happy girl now. =D

Hee, then spent the whole of today just reading this book- Daniel's gift by Barbara Freethy. It's a really touching story. And believe me, it has the ability to get your curiosity piqued throughout the whole book. I finished the entire book in like five hours, just sitting on the sofa and reading. Its actually pretty nice. You guys ought to try it sometime, though it may seem geeky. Hees.

Alrights, off to watch the amazing race asia already. I'll update another time. 32 days to christmas only! =D

Take my heart back

2006-11-19T23:12:00.000+08:00

Wow. Time sure passes real fast. It really makes you wana stop and reflect on everything that has happened. Today's the 19 of November. Its actually supposed to be our one and a half years with nigel if we were still together. Yes, the word is 'IF'. It was a real pity that we aren't together due to all those problems. He was really the only guy i cried for. There were no other worthy of my tears, even for now.

Anyways, spent the entire Sunday with my family again. It's actually really nice, just shopping, eating, exchanging our work and school traumas and giving daddy a makeover on his dressing. Hee, and one good thing about shopping with your mum is that she's your atm machine. My brother bought like a leather wallet and jeans, and for me, pretty gold slippers and a liverpool water bottle. Yeah i know, mine doesn't seem that fantastic compared to my brother's. But there weren't any clothes that caught my eye today. =( Sigh, but i've got shopping sprees planned with my girlfriends already! So that should make up for today's loss. =D

Oh yah, and i tried applying for jobs today. Sent resumes to Sentosa and the Singapore Zoological Gardens based on Andrea's sample resume. Hee, thanks babe! =D I applied for positions such as Tram Captain, Show Presenter and Hot-Line Guest Service Officer. Hopefully they'll get back to me.

Hee, looking for job with Faizaa tomorrow afternoon then heading to chalet with team seven at night. Can't wait! =D

Right where you want me

2006-11-17T23:57:00.000+08:00

WHOPPEDOO! =D The big o's finally over! Hee, went to get my deserving treat from faizaa after my history paper. Hee, we bet on one of the world cup matches and i won the bet. hees =) And wow, i finally can blog and shop till i drop this holis =D

Oh yah, I've got BIG BIG NEWS for you guys. Check this news out!

Liverpool skipper Steven Gerrard could soon be crowned the most popular footballer in the world. The midfielder is one of three Englishmen to make the 30-man shortlist for the International Federation of Football History and Statistics award. Please vote for darling gerrard in this following website: http://www.iffhs.de/?b002ec70a804f4cd003f0a

Hahas. Woot! There's a liverpool match tmr. Going to vivo with my family tmr. LOL! They wanted to celebrate 'the end' of my O's. Hee, hopefully I can still spend some time with my friends and my darling soon.

City of angels

2006-11-06T19:13:00.000+08:00

Hee, just had my social studies and emath p1 today. The papers were alright. Hopefully i didn't make any careless mistakes for emath so i can get my A1. =) Social studies was alright too. I planned the time perfectly well and even had five minutes left to check.

Hee, went to study with jon, nithya and christine on saturday. Jon and i went to the ang mo kio community centre to study with chris and her friends. Couldn't concentrate much, so went to nithya's house instead. After doing a little bit of studying, we ordered macs and ate while watching soccer. Managed to do two papers of emath and abit of ss, so it wasn't that un-productive as i thought it would be. Haha. I think the most un-productive one would be jon. LOL!

Anyways, after the paper today, went home to watch coach carter on hbo hits for a while. Then decided to meddle with my brother's xbox for a while. Haha. But soon after, i became addicted to the fifa world cup game. My brother was teaching me how to operate the controls. Couldn't manage it well at the beginning though. I kept passing the ball to the other team and kept pressing the wrong buttons. Haha. But i managed to get the hang of the game. I made darling gerrard score three goals for the first match against my brother. That match ended in a draw. Hee, but i won the second match against my brother with a 2-0 win and gerrard scored both of the goals! =)

Alright, gotta start studying again. Got lots of nice shows at night. Hee, so gotta work my ass off now. And to those taking combined science: ALL THE BEST FOR YOUR UPCOMING PAPERS =)

Too little too late

2006-11-01T20:41:00.000+08:00

AHHHHH!!! Why didn't i set the god damn alarm!! I hate watching repeated matches. I'm like stuck waiting for the 23, 71 and 76 minutes of the liverpool game just to see the goals. Its really different from watching the live match. Its so god damn boring watching repeats. =(

What's worst is that, i've been looking forward to the match all night, studying while waiting for the match. Was darn tired by the time half past one striked. Haha. So decided to get ten minutes of shut eye. I thought Marcus's message would probably wake me up, so it wouldn't be necessary to set the alarm. LOL! But nope it didn't. I jerked out of bed at seven in the morning just to realise that i've missed the match!

Went to check the scores online. And guess what? Darling gerrard scored!!!!! Liverpool triumphed against Bordeaux 3-0 with Garcia scoring the other two goals. STUPID!! I missed the match whereby gerrard finally scored ever since the fa cup finals!! The next time, i'm so gona set the alarm or just stay awake throughout the night!

Anyways, tomorrow's gona be the literature o level paper. All the best to those taking the paper. =) The o's gona be over in exactly sixteen days!! Can't wait =)

Walking on sunshine

2006-10-28T23:49:00.000+08:00

WEEEEEEEEEE!!!! =) =) Liverpool's back! After a losing streak, they've finally triumphed 3-1 in today's aston villa match. =D Hyypia, Garcia and Crouch scored in this match. =) Sadly, Gerrard didn't score and was even substituted in the second half. Hee, but nevertheless, i'm still over the moon tonight. =) Nothing's gona bring my mood down. =D

All eyes on us

2006-10-24T23:06:00.000+08:00

Went to vivo city for lunch with my parents today. The place was so freaking big that it gave me headaches with the amount of people pouring in. It was as though the whole of Singapore was heading to vivo or something. LOL!

After that, met up with Hui Qing to study at west mall. We couldn't find a place to sit at coffee bean as it was packed, so headed to swensens instead. Haha. It was pretty wierd, cos we were the only ones studying there.

Haha. See that old man in white behind Hui Qing? He's finally paying attention to his wife sitting across him. LOL! He was staring at both of us as we were doing our work. LOL! It was really freaky. He would even stare at you even when you turn to look at him. Haha. What can i say? Some people have never seen girls studying in swensens before. LOL!

Haha. The crowd was pouring in at about seven plus. We didn't want to get chased out by the waitresses so we decided to head to coffee bean instead. Haha. Saw Kelvin and clement mugging there too. There was a cute waiter at coffee bean. LOL. Hui Qing will get really excited whenever he comes to the nearby tables to clean up. Haha. After some time, a group of Japanese looking chinese guys came over and sit at the table behind us. They kept staring at us too. They will like look at us every few minutes. Hui Qing said they will like talk and turn to look at us all at the same time. Do we look wierd or something? Haha. But kelvin came to save us by coming to talk to us. One of the guys was like 'Oh man, got guy come and talk to them leh'. LOL! They left soon after that. Too bad! Hui Qing missed her chance of knowing her dream guy- a hot japanese looking guy. LOL!

Hui Qing's dad sent me home after studying. Dead tired now. I'll head to bed first. Nights =)

The night's still young

2006-10-22T12:43:00.000+08:00

HAPPY DEEPAVALI TO ALL =D

Hee, went to Nithya's house for Deepavali. It was so nice seeing all of my childhood friends again. As usual, midnight movies and heading to the mall is a must for all of us.

But before that, we had to find a perfect outfit for Nithya as she had to go to her friend's house for visiting. So off to Junction 8 we went, to find that perfect outfit.

Hee, isn't this such a motherly sight? Darling Alyssia is getting carried again after just five minutes of walking.

Poor Alyssia was bored after walking into a couple of 'adult' shops. So we decided to pamper her a little by bringing her into this shop whereby she can paint or use sand to colour their pictures.

With the little darling. =) She was sitting on my lap the whole time, while choosing colours to paint.

Hee, Nithya's like Alyssia's art teacher or something, slowly guiding her on her to squeeze the paint out. =)

Wee~ Her almost done masterpiece. =) After this, we did the colouring with sand on instead. But sadly, Alyssia took over my picture instead. I can't choose the colours anymore! =( Hee, but nevermind, i've done this when i was young anyways. So its alright. =)

In the end, Nithya couldn't find another outfit in the mall as she had to meet her friend already. So she had no choice but to wear back her outfit at home.

After she left, the others have already arrived. Hee, Sharon, Stanley, Michelle, Timothy, Jonathan, Ram and Christine were already at the playground chilling. So the girls decided to head to the mall again to get tickets first. Oh man, Nithya, Jonathan and i are all taking the o's this year. And what are we doing now? We were feeling super guilty along with christine who's taking her a's this year too. But well, why not enjoy the night first, before slogging hard tomorrow again.

With the pretty ladies here. From left: Sharon, Me, Christine and Isabel.

We went to watch the show 'Death Note'. It was a really nice show. A pretty interesting plot. LOL! And the leading actor looked like Benjamin (Christine's brother). Isabel, Jonathan and I kept talking bout the resemblance they had. Haha.

Tonight was really fun. =) We've all arranged a date on the 17Nov, whereby coincidentally, its our last paper for Christine and me. =) Till then, I've got to head back to my papers. Tata =)

shed off those pounds please!

2006-10-20T22:35:00.001+08:00

Went to school for Social Studies with Mdm Suhaily in the afternoon to get some revision papers. She gave me some really good tips in studying for humanities. Hee, Thankie =) After that, went to collect some clothes for my mum with Marcus. And then we both went our seperate ways as i had to meet Andrea and Beeping. Hee, Andrea and i had a surprise lined up for Beeping- Me and a strawberry cake. =)

It was really fun =) Hee, headed to Holland Village to surprise Beeping with a belated birthday treat. I made a really ugly card for her, or should i say, ugly letter for her. Haha. It was to make up for the present i bought for her, which she already has. Yeah, and our studying session was rather short, as we went to nydc for early dinner. Didn't have the really tempting sundae that we ordered cos i've put on a lot of weight these past few weeks. =( My cheeks look so much chubbier already. So i've really got to watch what i eat now. =( Haha. And to Azahar and Andrea, my blogskin isn't emo and i really am fat. LOL!

GEMS

2006-10-18T22:49:00.000+08:00

Went to the esplanade with Marcus to study today. It was really nice. Lunched at pizza hut and met this lady who gave excellent service. I must have looked really cold under the air conditioning, as she brought a hot cup of water to warm me up. She's so nice! =) LOL! But she started to scare us a little when she started to give us more things. She replenished Marcus's cup of water and soon after, brought a glass filled with ice in case we wanted it chilled. Haha. She kept coming out from the kitchen, to give us tissue, check and see if we're satisfied with our meal and clearing our plates. It was as though we were being watched by her or something. LOL! But she's doing her job really well. We wanted to give her the GEMS card, but couldn't find it.

Hee, anyways, GOOD LUCK to those having their practical tmr ya. =) Just one more month before the o's end. Can't wait =)

I Don't Wana Miss A Thing

2006-10-15T12:09:00.000+08:00

Phew. Thank god nothing bad happened during grad night, which coincidentally falls on Friday Thirteen. Instead, the most nervewrecking and shocking thing happened to me on grad night. I was crowned Ms JVS along with Wee Pin, the Mr JVS, among all the other hot guys and girls nominated for it. Thanks for all the claps and flowers ya =) Hee, well for the guys, there were Chin Hong, Faiz, Zhan Yang, Wei Wen and Wee Pin. And for the girls, there were Basirah, Me, Sheila, Denise and Kai Ning. Hee, and I did the catwalk thing with the 'oh so tall and handsome' Chin Hong. LOL! It was pretty wierd as he was so tall and well, Ahem, i'm short. Haha. And to Edsmond: THE GE TAI SINGER WON! LOL!

Hee, The four of us here, Edsmond, Me, Andrea and Beeping performed the song 'Best In Me' by Blue. It was really fun getting together to harmonise and sing the song together =) And anyway, the school labelled Edsmond, Andrea and I, the '4B rockers'. Haha. Cool right? Hee, and it was really nice sitting together with Andrea and Beeping, my nine years pals =)

Here's with our 'hot' physics teacher, Mr Tan. LOL! The few of us were trying to find our teachers to take pictures with them. But sadly, we couldn't find our pretty class mentor in time. Haha. So count yourself lucky, Mr Tan. LOL!

The teamseven girls here. From top left, Monica, Melissa, Yi Hern, Beeping, Me, Andrea, Felicia, Shi Jie, Karmila, Faizaa and Shakila. Don't you think everyone looks so different and pretty tonight? This is what soccer girls can transform into when we dress up =) Hee

The choir girls here =) From left, Sujitha, Me and Afifah. Both of them have guided me through choir along with Dama. They have given me a lot of support throughout the year in leading the choir. Thanks a lot guys =)

With Beeping here, my nine years friend. =D

Wow. Funny how the night can pass so fast right? It was definitely a night to remember and man, i'm really going to miss all of my pals when we finally graduate out of JVS. After this night, Its time for us to grab our books again and start to prepare for our o's already! Man, I think I better head back to all of my exam papers again. I'll update another time. Tata =)

One last breath

2006-10-12T22:26:00.000+08:00

Hee, I'm here to update! LOL! Well, have been real busy these few days, attending night classes and so on. Everyone has been taking lots of photos lately too, since today's our last day of school!Oh man, I'm so gona miss everyone!!

Our 'X-Men' pose =) LOL! My two best friends, Andrea and Edsmond here! Andrea and i were holding our breath while taking this photo. Cos Edsmond stinks real badly after playing soccer in the afternoon. Be grateful that you weren't near him or any of the guys in my class. They were hanging their stinky pe shirts on top of the computers in the humanities room somemore! EWWW!!
LOL! Andrea's acting dumb again!! Hee, Hui Qing got real excited in taking photos too. We were really fussy and kept asking poor joanne to take our photos over and over again until we're satisfied! .. LOL!

Anyways, tomorrow's grad night. Oh man, and it's gona be friday thirteen. Hopefully no one has the same dress as mine. Keeping my fingers crossed =)

Take me to the place i love

2006-10-06T23:15:00.000+08:00

Wow. Its exactly one week before graduation. Don't you think its truly amazing how time flies? It's actually pretty scary come to think of it.

Today will be the last math night class we're ever going to have in jurongville. Mdm Wu treated us to canadian pizza and well, guess who helped to finish the pizza? .. Hee, the four of us here were so hungry that we practically ate three slices of pizza. Oh man, i'm so going on a diet tomorrow. hahahaha

We're the hardworking ones in our class!! (YEAH RIGHT!!) LOL! Well, the four of us were busy camwhoring towards the end of night class whenever mdm wu isn't noticing. Hee =)

And here's our couple for the night. Hee, matching shirts and holding hands. Don't they look adorable? LOL! Hee, and don't you think the picture looks cool? The way the corridor seems to become the border of this photo or something. It has that 'Shooommmsss' effect. LOL! like it's some industrial site or something. Hahaha

Oh man, i'm like dead tired now. Had a pretty long day today. I want my bed now. Hee, Nights =)

Jesus take the wheel

2006-10-05T15:23:00.000+08:00

School was awkward, but i had loads of fun in class. Andrea and i were harmonising and singing away to the song ' back at one' by brain mcknight. Hee, and i'm officially not a confused soul anymore. Taking long walks really helps to clear your mind and to point you in the right direction.

Met up with nigel to collect some physics paper today. And it somehow eased all my fears of liking him again. I've realised that what we used to share was the past, and we're just friends right now. That chemistry and love we once shared was lost. No racing heart beat, no wishing that we were still together, and of it all, no crying. The relationship between us is now purely friendship. Instead, there's another whom i feel strongly for now. And i'm absolutely certain that he's not just another substitute for nigel. Though now's not the time to do all of these stuff, i can't help but feel really bad about not confirming my feelings first. Funny how seeing nigel again can make me realise so many things. That i've been paranoid for nothing and that what happened between us is totally inevitable, and it's only a matter of time before the breakup will occur. All i can do now is to move on, and just keep the wonderful memories that we once shared. No regrets or whatsoever.

It feels really good right now. Its as though the storm has passed, and the sun's shining brightly down on me. And i'm not an emo kid anymore okay! .. LOL! That's what andrea has always been saying about me lately. Hurmphs! .. hahaha

The hardest part

2006-10-04T22:14:00.000+08:00

Don't you realise, that only the person that you like, can jolt you back to reality, and make you want to do all out to assure the person that he's the one you like? It makes you want to confirm if you really do like this person and if you have truly gotten over your past relationships. There is a need to feel secure and to move on from those failed relationships. That possbility of falling in love with your ex again still exists, especially if you've not seen him in ages. Therefore, the best way to do that is to meet up and have a talk with your ex again. If you've come to realise that your ex is still the one that makes your world go round, then, it's clear that you've yet to move on. However, if you've come to realise that he is no longer your world, and that you've already lost that feeling and chemistry you've both once shared, it is still not a pity as a friendship can be saved. It's not worth it to lose a friend just because you guys have broken up. After this, everything will soon clear up, and you can finally move on to other relationships without any regrets. This is truely the defination of moving on from a failed relationship. Funny how it can take one so long to realise this, and to gather enough courage to confront what you've always been avoiding.

GIVE ME RADIANT SKIN!

2006-10-03T21:08:00.000+08:00

HEE, hui qing and I bought face masks to keep our face clean and spotless so that we'll look good for grad night .. LOL! .. I've never used a face mask before. So it better work man!! Haha. I purposely asked the salesperson to help me find a face mask that doesn't whiten my face. LOL! It'll look really wierd if my face's fair and my body is tan right!

Hee, anyways, for all those who knows this little girl, Alyssia, her little sister came into our world this afternoon. Oh no, Alyssia's already a big headache. Now there's another to come and pinch my cheeks and beg me to play barbie doll with her. LOL! But she's really adorable right. Kids these age get everything they want! Hurmphs! I want to be a little kid too (though i know i look like one) hahahaha .. Anyway, WELCOME TO OUR WORLD, YOUNG ONE =)

Weathered

2006-10-01T18:29:00.000+08:00

Oh man .. Just finished tuition. Went through all the prelims papers with my math tutor. And you know what? I lost 49 marks for Amath just on careless mistakes. 49 YOU KNOW!!!! I really feel like killing myself. Oh my god!! I could have easily gotten an A1!! Lost 24 marks for Emath too. Could have gotten an A1 instead of just an A2 =( But thank god its prelims and not the o's. I've really got to be extra careful during the all mighty o's now.

But all thanks to Andrea, Edsmond, Marcus and my tutor, that i'm back on my feet now. I was so depressed over my preliminary results that I almost wanted to give up on my o's. Yeah, i know its a really dumb thought. But I was constantly reminded by them not to give up, and that prelims is tougher than the o's. If I'm more careful with my work, I should be able to sail through it. Thank god that I am blessed with such wonderful friends and tutor. Without them, I think I would probably be suffering from depression now. Hee, but don't worry. I'm totally back to myself now. It really helps not thinking about the results and move on to work harder for the o's. Yeah, I think i better get started on going through the mistakes made during the prelims. tata=)

tears and rain

2006-09-30T22:01:00.000+08:00

BOOO!! .. went to sentosa with marcus, beeping, kelvin and clement today. but sadly, dark clouds began to form and it rained constantly. booooo .. this means no nice tan for today =( we played volleyball in the rain, went for cam-whoring and then went for ice cream and sushi. While sitting outside New Zealand Natural, we noticed two guys skimboarding along the coast. It was so nice watching them enjoy themselves. It made me miss windsurfing even more. The thought of being out at sea in the stormy weather, with the strong winds almost lifting you and your sailboard off the water, the speed and intensity you feel as you crash through the choppy waters. Man, How I wish I was out there too. But soon after, the rain stopped and we headed to town to do some shopping. Hee, i bought a pretty green dress at tanlines, the colour that i've always been searching for =) But honestly, though the weather wasn't promising, i had a great time nevertheless. It was great hanging out with beeping and the rest again. It has been so long since we've hanged out, especially since we're in different classes now.

Yeah, anyways, got back in time to catch the livepool match against the bolton wanderers. booo.. liverpool lost with a score of 2-0. I was so pissed with Reina for letting in a free kick . Gonzalez didn't play and darling gerrard didn't get the ball in =( Oh well, they'll do better the next match! Hee, alright, i'll stop here for now. Off to catch the chelsea match. tata =)

gone so young

2006-09-30T00:57:00.000+08:00

Yeah! Its finally friday. Condensed timetable starts next week! Hee, i had a great time today. Drea and i were like edsmond's fashion stylists, helping him to put together an outfit for graduation night =) It was real fun, just sitting in class, discussing the different outfits and singing away like crazy. After school, went to causeway point with marc to study and catch john tucker must die. That show's damn nice. Hee, jesse matcalfe's hot! haha. Alright, gotta turn in soon, or else i wouldn't be able to wake up for tmr. Going to sentosa tmr with beeping and all .. can't wait =)

how far is heaven

2006-09-27T17:39:00.000+08:00

Well, got back most of my results this week. It was all totally unexpected, and it ain't a good thing =( Screwed up the papers with lots of careless mistakes. I am totally disappointed with myself for physics and chemistry and cried my eyes out for these two papers. Lost so many marks just because i didn't draw the arrows for the light rays and didn't write the SI unit. Argh .. I was expecting at least a B for phyics, but sadly, due to the loss of marks, i got a C5 =( I think even Mr tan was disappointed in me. He told me that he can tell the effort put in and encouraged me not to give up. Sigh.. And though i did expect to do badly for chemistry since it was god damn difficult, i can't help but feel that all the hard work i put in to improve my chemistry grade has all been for nothing. Real sorry if i scared anyone with my sudden outburst of tears. Andrea and Edsmond were trying really hard to cheer me up and hoping that i wouldn't cry. But that voice in my head kept telling me that i'm such a loser. Its hard having smart people as your best friends you know. But i'm really happy for them. And thanks for trying to cheer me up guys =) Oh well, i guess the three month jc course is now out of my league. I better work hard for the o's now. I don't want history to repeat itself ever again.

singapore idol

2006-09-25T19:38:00.000+08:00

hey there =) well, i was offered last minute tickets to the Singapore Idol finals at the Indoor Stadium last night. Nithya was sick and sharon had last minute homework to do. It was quite a pity, cos nithya idolises jonathan, whereas the rest of us are just going for the sake of the free tickets. hee, so isabel and i went with michelle to catch the finals .. here are some pictures i took at the stadium ..

daniel ong and gurmit singh warming up the crowd hady mirza singing his first song jonathan leong exiting the stage isabel and i

well, couldn't take much pictures due to the usher's neverending speech about taking photography and videography in the stadium. so that's about all. haha. okays, i'll update another time ya! tata=)

back at one

2006-09-24T02:06:00.000+08:00

hey there =) FINALLY my blog has successfully made .. thanks to jon and isabel =) yeah, well .. this blog can help to keep track of whats happening in my life now. its just so freaky, the way time passes so fast, that in a split second, your whole life just wheezes by. so it'll be nice to be aware of whats happening and to hold memory close at hand. yeah, i'll update this blog another time ya. gotta go for math tuition now. tata =)